Why Do I Doubt? – Faith

I’ve never understood why “doubt” is part of my life and especially my walk of faith.  And in fact it has challenged me, downright discouraged me, and if I was honest almost beat me.

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How could I consider myself “saved” if I had this cloud of doubt hanging over my head.  I believe in GOD “The Creator” and his plan for our salvation thru his son JESUS.  I have no “doubt” that our world and the heavens were created by a supernatural force, by a creator GOD.  And I have no “doubt” that GOD came to this earth in the form of a human in JESUS of Nazareth, Yet at times, when the latest news channel publishes another shocking news story, or when something closer to home backs me into a corner, my brain works on my faith…is this all true?

When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.  Matthew 28:17

In prayer I have asked GOD to relieve me of this doubt, “take this lack of faith away from me.”  Yet from time to time my mental capacity likes to challenges my heart and my faith in our GOD.  I’ve wondered why I was so weak in my relationship with GOD.  Why am I so weak in my faith?  Was I another Thomas?

Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”  John 20:27

I would like to report that in a marvelous act, in a moment of clarity all doubt has been removed from me, but that has not happened, yet something even more powerful has confirmed that doubt, is a clear sign that GOD is working in my life and his Salvation is secured for me in CHRIST JESUS.

While out on a run and in prayer it all can to me.  Could it be that the fact that I have doubt proves that powerful dark forces, yes Satan is still alive and well in the world.  If there was no Satan, my faith in a higher power, in the creator GOD would not be challenged.  If our Christian religion was empty, no opposing force would counter its rightful place in the center of our lives.  If JESUS was just a crazy man telling wild stories, no force would try to prove my faith in HIM, wrong.

The very fact that at times I (we) face challenges of faith, is proof that Satan is waging a war to try and separate me (us) from our GOD.  And this doubt proves that GOD is real, that Salvation thru “GOD’s plan” is true.  If this was not the case then no “force” would attempt to sway us or destroy our faith.  Doubt proves the point that GOD is real and Satan is attempting to fight for your soul.

Now what to do with that doubt?  Before this doubt would eat at me, discourage me and separate me from my GOD.  At times this doubt was the perfect wedge in my life edging me to turn from my faith and return to the world, return to where Satan wanted me to be…..away from my GOD.  After realizing that doubt proves there is a war for our souls, for MY SOUL….doubt now comforts me in that GOD has a plan for me.  That a Christian faith is true, is real and is the basis of my (our) lives, lives centered on GOD.  Doubt in me, challenges me to trust in GOD’s hold of my life, not my hold on him.  Upon accepting JESUS as my Lord and Savior, my name has been written in the book of life, written with JESUS’s blood and nothing can erase that, not my doubt, my failures nor my weak mind.

The one who is victorious will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out the name of that person from the book of life, but will acknowledge that name before my Father and his angels.  Revelation 3:5

Don’t let doubt beat you, let it comfort you that you’re on the right road…the road to our GOD.

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